Mark Malone♥ღ♥

I WONT BE LIGHTING CANDLES TILL WEDNESDAY XXX



THANKS to all my friends who light a candle for mark, leave a tribute or a picture for me or mark, i
cant tell you how much it means to me.♥ღ♥♥ღ♥ღ♥
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My brother mark was born on 20th june 1970, he was a year & 9 months older than me, mark was
mischievous as a toddler, but by the time he reached his teens his mischievous years were behind
him, mark did well in school passing most of his exams & A levels, he had some great friends, out of
the blue when mark was 16 he took an overdose, i was 14 and just couldnt believe it, we were so
close, but i missed any signs, fortunately mark recovered physically but was diagnosed with
depression, we thought it would pass, but if anything it just got worse, over the next few years
mark attempted suicide twice, i was in constant fear of losing my wonderful brother, mark had so
many qualities, he was loyal, caring, thoughtful & funny, mark was great at drawing, writing poems
and wrote and sang some of his own music, also he wrote a book of his life & living with depression,
marks career's officer predicted he would be a graphic designer, when i was 20 mark was going
through a really bad period in his life, by this time i was a mum myself, i left my boy danny with
some friends and i stayed with mark, i took him to his g.p & begged them to help him, in my opinion
they didnt, after a week i asked mark to come to wales with me, he wouldnt, he wanted to stay with
mum & dad, but he told me he was feeling suicidal, and almost asked my permission, i had to go home
to my boy, but first i made mark promise he wouldnt try to take his life, all the way from coventry
to colwyn bay i cried, i got off the train,went to my friends and asked if they could have danny for
a few more days, then got the next train back to coventry, we talked and cried & mark promised me
he would try and be more positive,and get some help, over the next few years i learnt to relax a
bit, mark would come over & stay with me at times, we had some unforgettable great times, but mark
had a deep sadness about him that just wouldnt go away, he was in & out of hospital at times for his
depression, but he hated it, so never stayed long, eventually i think mark in his own way learnt to
live with it, he seemed to settle, there was nothing mark couldnt talk to me about, and lots of
talking we did, when mark was 27 he woke up one day and couldnt move his left arm at all, he had
some tests but was waiting to see a specialist, by this time mark was on numerous anti-depressants,
which my mum had control over, she gave him his tablets every night, this was suggested by his g.p
when he was 26, reluctantly mark agreed, yet the whole time mark had no feeling in his arm his g.p
had been prescribing him very strong painkillers on a separate prescription to the one that my mum
picked up, mark was still waiting over 12 months later for an appointment with a specialist, we knew
nothing about the painkillers, by this time i felt that mark had learned to live with his
depression,
on monday 19th of april i was at work, the phone rang at 11.15, i answered it, it was my mum, she
said she had some bad news, i thought, oh no, my dad(he has a lot of problems with his legs), but no
it was mark, my dad had gone into his room that morning to wake him, but couldn't, my brother was
dead, i was hysterical, for the first time in my life i had a taste of what it was like to walk in
marks shoes, i didnt want to be here, a week later mark came home, the night before his funeral (my
mum and dad are from belfast) i stayed up all night with him & just talked & cried all over
him(sorry mark)at the inquest the coroner recorded accidental death,mark died from an overdose of
morphine based painkillers,mark had always left notes in the past but not this time, twice he said
we would be within our rights to take it to the gmc, although nothing to do with mark that g.p was
struck off the following year. Mark whatever happened that night you're at peace now & for that i
have to be grateful,
you struggled & suffered for 12 years, i would have done anything to take your pain away, mark left
behind our mum & dad, his boy marc, me, & my boy danny, the world changed for me on that day mark,
its never been as bright, so i hope with all my heart you're world is brighter now, they say that
times a healer, not for me ive just had to get used to you not being around. I love you and miss you
more than i ever thought possible, youre my best friend, godbless you mark and keep you safe.
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I never knew that morning mark,
That sorrow was so near,
I only know i lost the one
I loved so very dear.
You left a place no-one
Can fill,i miss you
Mark and i
Always will.♥♥♥♥♥

If I couldn't do it,
You'd show me the way,
You'd know if I was worried,
I didn't have to say.
You'd just give me that knowing look,
And I'd know that you had guessed,
Everything was better then,
You'd see to the rest.
I haven't got that anymore,
there'll never be another,
who could ever, ever fit the bill,
That you filled as my brother.

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Please, God, forgive a silent tear,
A fervent wish my brother was here.
There are others, yes, I know,
But he was mine, I loved him so.
Dear God, take a message,
To my brother in heaven above.
Tell him how much I miss him,
And give him all my love.

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Surrounded by friends i am lonesome,
In the midst of my joys i am blue,
With a smile on my face i've heartache,
Longing dear brother for you.♥♥♥♥♥

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If there is another life
And i am born once more
I pray that god will give me
The same brother as before
As i search the whole world over
Until the end of time
i'll never find another brother
To love as i loved mine.♥♥♥♥♥

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I LOVE YOU MARK ♥

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GODBLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU SAFE TILL I GET THERE ♥♥♥♥♥