| Location | Coventry |
| Age | 28 years |
| Date of Birth | 20/06/1970 |
| Date of Death | 19/04/1999 |
| Visitors | 6,334 since 28/06/2007 |
| Creator |
I WONT BE LIGHTING CANDLES TILL WEDNESDAY XXX
THANKS to all my friends who light a candle for mark, leave a tribute or a picture for me or mark, i
cant tell you how much it means to me.♥ღ♥♥ღ♥ღ♥
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My brother mark was born on 20th june 1970, he was a year & 9 months older than me, mark was
mischievous as a toddler, but by the time he reached his teens his mischievous years were behind
him, mark did well in school passing most of his exams & A levels, he had some great friends, out of
the blue when mark was 16 he took an overdose, i was 14 and just couldnt believe it, we were so
close, but i missed any signs, fortunately mark recovered physically but was diagnosed with
depression, we thought it would pass, but if anything it just got worse, over the next few years
mark attempted suicide twice, i was in constant fear of losing my wonderful brother, mark had so
many qualities, he was loyal, caring, thoughtful & funny, mark was great at drawing, writing poems
and wrote and sang some of his own music, also he wrote a book of his life & living with depression,
marks career's officer predicted he would be a graphic designer, when i was 20 mark was going
through a really bad period in his life, by this time i was a mum myself, i left my boy danny with
some friends and i stayed with mark, i took him to his g.p & begged them to help him, in my opinion
they didnt, after a week i asked mark to come to wales with me, he wouldnt, he wanted to stay with
mum & dad, but he told me he was feeling suicidal, and almost asked my permission, i had to go home
to my boy, but first i made mark promise he wouldnt try to take his life, all the way from coventry
to colwyn bay i cried, i got off the train,went to my friends and asked if they could have danny for
a few more days, then got the next train back to coventry, we talked and cried & mark promised me
he would try and be more positive,and get some help, over the next few years i learnt to relax a
bit, mark would come over & stay with me at times, we had some unforgettable great times, but mark
had a deep sadness about him that just wouldnt go away, he was in & out of hospital at times for his
depression, but he hated it, so never stayed long, eventually i think mark in his own way learnt to
live with it, he seemed to settle, there was nothing mark couldnt talk to me about, and lots of
talking we did, when mark was 27 he woke up one day and couldnt move his left arm at all, he had
some tests but was waiting to see a specialist, by this time mark was on numerous anti-depressants,
which my mum had control over, she gave him his tablets every night, this was suggested by his g.p
when he was 26, reluctantly mark agreed, yet the whole time mark had no feeling in his arm his g.p
had been prescribing him very strong painkillers on a separate prescription to the one that my mum
picked up, mark was still waiting over 12 months later for an appointment with a specialist, we knew
nothing about the painkillers, by this time i felt that mark had learned to live with his
depression,
on monday 19th of april i was at work, the phone rang at 11.15, i answered it, it was my mum, she
said she had some bad news, i thought, oh no, my dad(he has a lot of problems with his legs), but no
it was mark, my dad had gone into his room that morning to wake him, but couldn't, my brother was
dead, i was hysterical, for the first time in my life i had a taste of what it was like to walk in
marks shoes, i didnt want to be here, a week later mark came home, the night before his funeral (my
mum and dad are from belfast) i stayed up all night with him & just talked & cried all over
him(sorry mark)at the inquest the coroner recorded accidental death,mark died from an overdose of
morphine based painkillers,mark had always left notes in the past but not this time, twice he said
we would be within our rights to take it to the gmc, although nothing to do with mark that g.p was
struck off the following year. Mark whatever happened that night you're at peace now & for that i
have to be grateful,
you struggled & suffered for 12 years, i would have done anything to take your pain away, mark left
behind our mum & dad, his boy marc, me, & my boy danny, the world changed for me on that day mark,
its never been as bright, so i hope with all my heart you're world is brighter now, they say that
times a healer, not for me ive just had to get used to you not being around. I love you and miss you
more than i ever thought possible, youre my best friend, godbless you mark and keep you safe.
x♥x♥x♥x
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I never knew that morning mark,
That sorrow was so near,
I only know i lost the one
I loved so very dear.
You left a place no-one
Can fill,i miss you
Mark and i
Always will.♥♥♥♥♥
If I couldn't do it,
You'd show me the way,
You'd know if I was worried,
I didn't have to say.
You'd just give me that knowing look,
And I'd know that you had guessed,
Everything was better then,
You'd see to the rest.
I haven't got that anymore,
there'll never be another,
who could ever, ever fit the bill,
That you filled as my brother.
♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥
Please, God, forgive a silent tear,
A fervent wish my brother was here.
There are others, yes, I know,
But he was mine, I loved him so.
Dear God, take a message,
To my brother in heaven above.
Tell him how much I miss him,
And give him all my love.
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Surrounded by friends i am lonesome,
In the midst of my joys i am blue,
With a smile on my face i've heartache,
Longing dear brother for you.♥♥♥♥♥
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If there is another life
And i am born once more
I pray that god will give me
The same brother as before
As i search the whole world over
Until the end of time
i'll never find another brother
To love as i loved mine.♥♥♥♥♥
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♥«´¨`•°WITH LOVE°•´¨`»♥
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I LOVE YOU MARK ♥
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GODBLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU SAFE TILL I GET THERE ♥♥♥♥♥
♥ღ♥ A shadow of joy flickered; it is me.
♥ღ♥ A shadow of joy flickered; it is me.
I told you I wouldn't leave.
My spirit is with you.
My memories, my thoughts are
imbedded deep in your heart.
I still love you.
Do not for one moment think
that you have been abandoned.
I am in the Light.
In the corner,
in the hall,
the car,
the yard --
these are the places I stay with you.
My spirit rises every time you pray for me,
but my energy comes closer to you.
Love does not diminish,
it grows stronger.
I am the feather that finds you in the yard,
the dimmed light that grows brighter
in your mind,
I place our memories for you to see.
We lived in our special way,
a way that now has its focus changed.
I still crave your understanding and
long for the many words of prayer
and good fortune for my soul.
I am in the Light.
As you struggle to adjust without me,
I watch silently.
Sometimes I summon up all the strength
of my new world
to make you notice me.
Impressed by your grief,
I try to impress my love
deeper into your consciousness.
As you should,
I call out to the Heavens for help.
You should know that the fountain of youth
does exist.
My soul is now healthy.
Your love sends me new found energy.
I am adjusting to this new world.
I am with you and I am in the Light.
Please don't feel bad that you can't see me.
I am with you wherever you go.
I protect you,
just as you protected me so many times.
Talk to me and somehow I will
find a way to answer you.
Mother, father, son or daughter
it makes no difference.
Brother, sister, lover,
husband or wife, it makes no difference.
Whatever our connection-friend or even foe-
I see you with my new eyes.
I am learning to help wherever you are,
where ever I am needed.
This can be done because I am in the Light.
When you feel despair, reach out to me.
I will come.
Our love for you truly does
transcend from Heaven to Earth.
Finish your life with the enthusiasm and zest
that you had when we were together
in the physical sense.
You owe this to me, but more importantly,
you owe it to yourself.
Life continues for both of us.
I am with you because I love you
and I am in the Light ♥ღ♥
Author Unknown
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Each night we shed a silent tear,
As we speak to you in prayer.
To let you know we love you,
And just how much we care.
Take our million teardrops,
Wrap them up in love,
Then ask the wind to carry them,
To you in heaven above.
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Love always Carol....ㄨㄨㄨ
**★ܓ
When you need
someone to listen and
help to see you through
My wish is that
you think of me
and know
I'll be there for you
**★ܓ
A Tribute To Mark Malone
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Love Carol....x
love you miss you x
hi mark, its been a while since i wrote to you, ive been working the most ridiculous shifts ever, still am but not quite as bad:) hope youre ok, everyone ok here, dans got his gcse starting this week and his roa night on thursday, hes working in fountains today has been all weekend, i think i'll make a curry for when he gets in that'll please him:)me mum and rob are off to benidorm after dans roa on thursday night till tuesday a last minute mad idea of mine haha, ive never been but ive heard all the cheesy stories but loads of people have said its great too, so we'll see, its gotta be better than work:)dan didnt want to come so i'll take him somewhere in august, havent got much more to tell you, mum and dad are fine, i better go anyway todays my only chance to pack working days and nights till i go, love you and miss you mark my gorgeous brother, hope your at peace xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
♥I Look At My Friends.♥
♥Then I Look At Me.♥
♥Without My Buddies Were Would I Be.?♥
♥My Friends♥
♥My Sisters♥
♥My Shadows♥
♥My World♥
♥Where Would I Be Without The Girls.?♥
♥Giggles&Tears.♥
♥Smiles&Laughs.♥
♥Late Night Texts&Photographs.♥
♥We,ll Be There Together Untill Are Last Day.♥
♥Best Girlies Forever Just Wont Fade Away..♥♥♥♥
♥ Send This To Those You Care About♥
♥ I Just Did ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
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looked towards the clouds today
And for a moment saw your face.
I wondered just where you have gone
With hope it's a better place.
Did you show yourself to me today,
To tell me you're all right?
Or was it just a daydream
Playing tricks upon my sight?
ჱܓ
We will always feel the void inside
Because you are not here.
But each new thought you send our way
Lets us know you're near.
So until our journey nears its end
And we hear the angels sing,
We'll face each new day as it comes
And live off the love you bring.
ჱܓ
WITH LOVE
So many days.......
have passed me by....
I want you back....
I sit down and cry...
How do I cope...
I really don't know...
I want to fall in a heap...
But I keep on the go...
Thinking of memories...
I end up with a tear....
I know you can see me...
I feel you near....
You send me signs....
To brighten my day....
To let me know...
You are okay....
My broken heart aches....
It is oh so sore...
I think of you ...
And the tears just pour....
Well I must go..
To fight another day....
Please don't forget..
You're in my heart to stay..........
ten whole years x
Hi mark, ten years today we've been without you, i cant believe it, feeling a bit numb today im working in a bit thought it best to carry on as normal i'll have a jack daniels tonight for you, horrible stuff:) love you mark and still missing you ten years on, wish you were still here XXXXXXXX
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