| Location | Coventry |
| Age | 28 years |
| Date of Birth | 20/06/1970 |
| Date of Death | 19/04/1999 |
| Visitors | 6,335 since 28/06/2007 |
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I WONT BE LIGHTING CANDLES TILL WEDNESDAY XXX
THANKS to all my friends who light a candle for mark, leave a tribute or a picture for me or mark, i
cant tell you how much it means to me.♥ღ♥♥ღ♥ღ♥
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My brother mark was born on 20th june 1970, he was a year & 9 months older than me, mark was
mischievous as a toddler, but by the time he reached his teens his mischievous years were behind
him, mark did well in school passing most of his exams & A levels, he had some great friends, out of
the blue when mark was 16 he took an overdose, i was 14 and just couldnt believe it, we were so
close, but i missed any signs, fortunately mark recovered physically but was diagnosed with
depression, we thought it would pass, but if anything it just got worse, over the next few years
mark attempted suicide twice, i was in constant fear of losing my wonderful brother, mark had so
many qualities, he was loyal, caring, thoughtful & funny, mark was great at drawing, writing poems
and wrote and sang some of his own music, also he wrote a book of his life & living with depression,
marks career's officer predicted he would be a graphic designer, when i was 20 mark was going
through a really bad period in his life, by this time i was a mum myself, i left my boy danny with
some friends and i stayed with mark, i took him to his g.p & begged them to help him, in my opinion
they didnt, after a week i asked mark to come to wales with me, he wouldnt, he wanted to stay with
mum & dad, but he told me he was feeling suicidal, and almost asked my permission, i had to go home
to my boy, but first i made mark promise he wouldnt try to take his life, all the way from coventry
to colwyn bay i cried, i got off the train,went to my friends and asked if they could have danny for
a few more days, then got the next train back to coventry, we talked and cried & mark promised me
he would try and be more positive,and get some help, over the next few years i learnt to relax a
bit, mark would come over & stay with me at times, we had some unforgettable great times, but mark
had a deep sadness about him that just wouldnt go away, he was in & out of hospital at times for his
depression, but he hated it, so never stayed long, eventually i think mark in his own way learnt to
live with it, he seemed to settle, there was nothing mark couldnt talk to me about, and lots of
talking we did, when mark was 27 he woke up one day and couldnt move his left arm at all, he had
some tests but was waiting to see a specialist, by this time mark was on numerous anti-depressants,
which my mum had control over, she gave him his tablets every night, this was suggested by his g.p
when he was 26, reluctantly mark agreed, yet the whole time mark had no feeling in his arm his g.p
had been prescribing him very strong painkillers on a separate prescription to the one that my mum
picked up, mark was still waiting over 12 months later for an appointment with a specialist, we knew
nothing about the painkillers, by this time i felt that mark had learned to live with his
depression,
on monday 19th of april i was at work, the phone rang at 11.15, i answered it, it was my mum, she
said she had some bad news, i thought, oh no, my dad(he has a lot of problems with his legs), but no
it was mark, my dad had gone into his room that morning to wake him, but couldn't, my brother was
dead, i was hysterical, for the first time in my life i had a taste of what it was like to walk in
marks shoes, i didnt want to be here, a week later mark came home, the night before his funeral (my
mum and dad are from belfast) i stayed up all night with him & just talked & cried all over
him(sorry mark)at the inquest the coroner recorded accidental death,mark died from an overdose of
morphine based painkillers,mark had always left notes in the past but not this time, twice he said
we would be within our rights to take it to the gmc, although nothing to do with mark that g.p was
struck off the following year. Mark whatever happened that night you're at peace now & for that i
have to be grateful,
you struggled & suffered for 12 years, i would have done anything to take your pain away, mark left
behind our mum & dad, his boy marc, me, & my boy danny, the world changed for me on that day mark,
its never been as bright, so i hope with all my heart you're world is brighter now, they say that
times a healer, not for me ive just had to get used to you not being around. I love you and miss you
more than i ever thought possible, youre my best friend, godbless you mark and keep you safe.
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I never knew that morning mark,
That sorrow was so near,
I only know i lost the one
I loved so very dear.
You left a place no-one
Can fill,i miss you
Mark and i
Always will.♥♥♥♥♥
If I couldn't do it,
You'd show me the way,
You'd know if I was worried,
I didn't have to say.
You'd just give me that knowing look,
And I'd know that you had guessed,
Everything was better then,
You'd see to the rest.
I haven't got that anymore,
there'll never be another,
who could ever, ever fit the bill,
That you filled as my brother.
♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥
Please, God, forgive a silent tear,
A fervent wish my brother was here.
There are others, yes, I know,
But he was mine, I loved him so.
Dear God, take a message,
To my brother in heaven above.
Tell him how much I miss him,
And give him all my love.
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Surrounded by friends i am lonesome,
In the midst of my joys i am blue,
With a smile on my face i've heartache,
Longing dear brother for you.♥♥♥♥♥
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If there is another life
And i am born once more
I pray that god will give me
The same brother as before
As i search the whole world over
Until the end of time
i'll never find another brother
To love as i loved mine.♥♥♥♥♥
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♥«´¨`•°WITH LOVE°•´¨`»♥
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I LOVE YOU MARK ♥
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GODBLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU SAFE TILL I GET THERE ♥♥♥♥♥
HAPPY EASTER
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"How do I say goodbye to a brother
That I love as much as you?
I still cannot believe you're gone
I'm still hoping it isn't true
Wishing this heartache was just a dream
From which I'd wake up and find
You still here, in life, with us
Or if not...somehow time we could rewind
For I don't know how to do it
How to say goodbye to a brother like you
There's almost no one who's shared as much of my life
Who knows me as well as you
I often think upon the memories we shared
When we were very young
You teased me, played with me and laughed with me
When our lives had just begun
When we shared simple thoughts and simple dreams
And were lost in childhood's plans
Dreaming up our next adventures
In the vivid ways only children can
miss you love you xxxxxx
love you mark xx
I know how much I miss you
I feel an emptiness inside
It shows in everything I do
It's something I can't hide
I simply miss you being there
Life seems dull and flat
Without you nothings quite the same
I can't say more than that
But one day we will meet again
I know that this is true
But everyday until then
I know i'll just be missing you.
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Seeing an angel always reminds me
That although you aren't here
You're being embraced by angels
So there is not a thing to fear
And someday I shall see you again
With a smile upon your face
Because this is what God has promised
Once I leave this earthly place
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i miss you xx
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EVERY STEP I TAKE,
EVERY MOVE I MAKE,
EVERY SINGLE DAY,
EVERY TIME I PRAY,
I"LL BE MISSING YOU.
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EVERY STEP I TAKE,
EVERY MOVE I MAKE,
EVERY SINGLE DAY,
EVERY TIME I PRAY,
I"LL BE MISSING YOU.
~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~ ~♥x♥~
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happy st patricks day x
Hi mark, happy st. patricks day, hope your with nan and grandad and uncle victor celebrating! im sure you will be:) i got back from ireland last night, i had a great time but it felt different again, i havent felt like that there for a long time, when i got there we passed all the flowers in antrim, so sad mark:( but i still had a great time anyway, rob spoilt me all week as usual bless him, the week went realy quick, im off work till saturday anyway!
i think your boys coming up today, ive just seen his tributes to you, he does worry me mark, i hope your not worried, he's unsure about going back to london because of the area that he stays in he feels unsafe, so he's at his mums at the mo she lives in a lovely village in mid wales which is better for him but then he cant carry on with his music course and he does need to do music, i think he should try to get on a music course in brighton his sister lives there aswell.
well i better go and carry on with the mounds of washing and ironing i have to do, i'll go and see mum and dad later, i know she worried about me being back in ireland, i can understand that seeing as thats why they had to move from there!
love you and miss you mark my gorgeous brother xxxxxxxxx
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I have not turned my back on you,
so there is no need to cry.
I'm watching you from heaven,
just beyond the morning sky.
I've seen you almost fall apart,
when you could barely stand.
I asked the Lord to comfort you,
and watched him take your hand.
He told me you are in more pain,
then I could ever be.
He wiped his eyes and swallowed hard,
then gave your hand to me.
Although you may not feel my touch,
or see me by your side.
I've whispered that I love you,
while I wiped each tear you cried.
So please try not to ache for me,
we'll meet again one day,
beyond the dark and stormy sky,
a Rainbow lights the way.
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miss you xxx
Just to say mark im off to ireland in the morning, not sure i should be going at all with the way things are, i'll be back in a week then i'll try my best, not just for you but its something i feel i have to do and i want to do, but you must already know that, so you know what you have to do, i'll go to nan and grandads grave and leave flowers from us and a rose for you, i get back the day before st. patricks day i timed that wrong didnt i, ive had a phonecall off mum about the trouble there last night shes worried its all going to start again as im going, but i'll be fine, i love belfast its such a shame, well i better go and get on with my packing, miss you mark and i love you xxxxxxxxxxxxx
With love xxx
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
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Love always Carol....xx
x Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~ 28th FEB 2009 Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~
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