| Location | Coventry |
| Age | 28 years |
| Date of Birth | 20/06/1970 |
| Date of Death | 19/04/1999 |
| Visitors | 6,333 since 28/06/2007 |
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I WONT BE LIGHTING CANDLES TILL WEDNESDAY XXX
THANKS to all my friends who light a candle for mark, leave a tribute or a picture for me or mark, i
cant tell you how much it means to me.♥ღ♥♥ღ♥ღ♥
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My brother mark was born on 20th june 1970, he was a year & 9 months older than me, mark was
mischievous as a toddler, but by the time he reached his teens his mischievous years were behind
him, mark did well in school passing most of his exams & A levels, he had some great friends, out of
the blue when mark was 16 he took an overdose, i was 14 and just couldnt believe it, we were so
close, but i missed any signs, fortunately mark recovered physically but was diagnosed with
depression, we thought it would pass, but if anything it just got worse, over the next few years
mark attempted suicide twice, i was in constant fear of losing my wonderful brother, mark had so
many qualities, he was loyal, caring, thoughtful & funny, mark was great at drawing, writing poems
and wrote and sang some of his own music, also he wrote a book of his life & living with depression,
marks career's officer predicted he would be a graphic designer, when i was 20 mark was going
through a really bad period in his life, by this time i was a mum myself, i left my boy danny with
some friends and i stayed with mark, i took him to his g.p & begged them to help him, in my opinion
they didnt, after a week i asked mark to come to wales with me, he wouldnt, he wanted to stay with
mum & dad, but he told me he was feeling suicidal, and almost asked my permission, i had to go home
to my boy, but first i made mark promise he wouldnt try to take his life, all the way from coventry
to colwyn bay i cried, i got off the train,went to my friends and asked if they could have danny for
a few more days, then got the next train back to coventry, we talked and cried & mark promised me
he would try and be more positive,and get some help, over the next few years i learnt to relax a
bit, mark would come over & stay with me at times, we had some unforgettable great times, but mark
had a deep sadness about him that just wouldnt go away, he was in & out of hospital at times for his
depression, but he hated it, so never stayed long, eventually i think mark in his own way learnt to
live with it, he seemed to settle, there was nothing mark couldnt talk to me about, and lots of
talking we did, when mark was 27 he woke up one day and couldnt move his left arm at all, he had
some tests but was waiting to see a specialist, by this time mark was on numerous anti-depressants,
which my mum had control over, she gave him his tablets every night, this was suggested by his g.p
when he was 26, reluctantly mark agreed, yet the whole time mark had no feeling in his arm his g.p
had been prescribing him very strong painkillers on a separate prescription to the one that my mum
picked up, mark was still waiting over 12 months later for an appointment with a specialist, we knew
nothing about the painkillers, by this time i felt that mark had learned to live with his
depression,
on monday 19th of april i was at work, the phone rang at 11.15, i answered it, it was my mum, she
said she had some bad news, i thought, oh no, my dad(he has a lot of problems with his legs), but no
it was mark, my dad had gone into his room that morning to wake him, but couldn't, my brother was
dead, i was hysterical, for the first time in my life i had a taste of what it was like to walk in
marks shoes, i didnt want to be here, a week later mark came home, the night before his funeral (my
mum and dad are from belfast) i stayed up all night with him & just talked & cried all over
him(sorry mark)at the inquest the coroner recorded accidental death,mark died from an overdose of
morphine based painkillers,mark had always left notes in the past but not this time, twice he said
we would be within our rights to take it to the gmc, although nothing to do with mark that g.p was
struck off the following year. Mark whatever happened that night you're at peace now & for that i
have to be grateful,
you struggled & suffered for 12 years, i would have done anything to take your pain away, mark left
behind our mum & dad, his boy marc, me, & my boy danny, the world changed for me on that day mark,
its never been as bright, so i hope with all my heart you're world is brighter now, they say that
times a healer, not for me ive just had to get used to you not being around. I love you and miss you
more than i ever thought possible, youre my best friend, godbless you mark and keep you safe.
x♥x♥x♥x
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I never knew that morning mark,
That sorrow was so near,
I only know i lost the one
I loved so very dear.
You left a place no-one
Can fill,i miss you
Mark and i
Always will.♥♥♥♥♥
If I couldn't do it,
You'd show me the way,
You'd know if I was worried,
I didn't have to say.
You'd just give me that knowing look,
And I'd know that you had guessed,
Everything was better then,
You'd see to the rest.
I haven't got that anymore,
there'll never be another,
who could ever, ever fit the bill,
That you filled as my brother.
♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥
Please, God, forgive a silent tear,
A fervent wish my brother was here.
There are others, yes, I know,
But he was mine, I loved him so.
Dear God, take a message,
To my brother in heaven above.
Tell him how much I miss him,
And give him all my love.
♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥
Surrounded by friends i am lonesome,
In the midst of my joys i am blue,
With a smile on my face i've heartache,
Longing dear brother for you.♥♥♥♥♥
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If there is another life
And i am born once more
I pray that god will give me
The same brother as before
As i search the whole world over
Until the end of time
i'll never find another brother
To love as i loved mine.♥♥♥♥♥
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♥«´¨`•°WITH LOVE°•´¨`»♥
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I LOVE YOU MARK ♥
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GODBLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU SAFE TILL I GET THERE ♥♥♥♥♥
x Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~ 27th FEB 2009 Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~
. Send this to all of your friends, If you get 7 back you are LOVED
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miss you xx
You Meant So Much
You meant so much to all of us
You were special and that's no lie
You brightened up the darkest day
And the cloudiest sky
Your smile alone warmed hearts
Your laugh was like music to hear
I would give absolutely anything
To have you well and standing near
Not a second passes
When you're not on our minds
Your love we will never forget
The hurt will ease in time
Many tears I have seen and cried
They have all poured out like rain
I know that you are happy now
And no longer in any pain.
GOOD MORNING TO YOU.
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LOVE JUDE.X
16TH FEBRUARY 2009
GOOD MORNING .............
♥ MISS YOU EVERY DAY. ♥
No words I write can ever say ♥
how much I miss you everyday. ♥
As time goes by, the loneliness grows ♥,
How I miss you, nobody knows. ♥
I think of you in silence, ♥
I often speak your name.
But all I have are memories, ♥
And a photo in a frame.
No one sees me weep. ♥
But the love I have for you, ♥
Is in my heart, and mine to keep. ♥
I have never stopped loving you
and I know I never will.
Deep inside my heart, ♥
You are with me still.
Heartaches, this world are many, ♥
But mine is worse than any. ♥
My heart still aches, as I whisper low, ♥
"I need you... and miss you so. ♥"
The things we feel so deeply ♥
are often the hardest things to say. ♥
But I just can't keep quiet anymore, ♥
So I'll tell you any ways. ♥
There is a place within my heart ♥
that no one else can fill. ♥
I love you and I always will! ♥ ♥
LOVE JUDE.X X
Happy Valentine's Day xx
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Love Deb & Kit
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miss you mark xxxx
It was a sudden parting,
too bitter to forget,
Those who loved you dearly,
Are the ones who can't forget.
We often sit and think of you,
And think of how you died;
To think you could not say goodbye,
Before you closed your eyes.
Your life was one of kindly deeds,
A helping hand for others' needs,
Sincere and true in heart and mind,
Beautiful memories left behind.
May the God of love and mercy,
Care for our loved one who is gone,
And bless with consolation,
Those left to carry on.
Our family chain is broken,
Nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one
The links shall join again
"Not Forgotten"
People think we have forgotten
When at times they see us smile
Little do they know the heartache
That our smiles hide all the while
To some you may be forgotten
To others a part of the past
But to those who loved and lost you
Your memory will last and last
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I'm writing this from heaven, where I dwell with God above.
Where there's no more tears or sadness, there's just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy because I am out of sight
Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night.
And I will stay beside you, every day, week and year
And when you're sad I'll still be there to wipe away your tears.
When you think of my life on earth and all those living years
Because your only human their bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry it does relieve the pain
Remember there wouldn't be flowers unless we first had rain.
I wish I could tell you of all that God has planned
But even if I were able to, you wouldn't understand.
When your going down the street and you've got me on your mind
I'm walking in your footsteps and only half a step behind.
And if you feel a gentle breeze or wind upon your face
Remember it's only me with a loving and soft embrace.
P.S. God sends His Love
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JENNY
When you need
someone to listen and
help to see you through
My wish is that
you think of me
and know
I'll be there for you
LOVE CAROL & MY ANGELS
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I Wish I Could See You One More Time
Come Walking Through My Door
But, I Know That Is Impossible
I Will Hear Your Voice No More
I Know You Can Feel My Tears
And You Don’t Want Me To Cry
Yet, My Heart Is Broken
Because I Can’t Understand Why
Someone So Precious Had To Die
I Pray That God Will Give Me Strength
And Somehow Get Me Through
As I Struggle With This Heartache
That Was Caused By Losing You
♥♥
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